Merey liye apney qeemti waqt ko nikalney waaloun aur in tehriroun ko perhney waloun ko mey Salaam pesh kerti houn aur un ka shukriyya adaa kerti houn, merey yeh alfaaz yeh tehreer kiyaa maynee rakhti hain yeh mey jaanti houn ya mera khudda jaanta hey, yeh tehreer meri zindaggi ki akhri tehreer hey, is key baad mey na kabhi kuch likhoun gi na kabhi kuch parhoun gi, ji haan ab sey kuch dair baad mey mout ki naram aghoush mey hamesha hamesha key liye khoo jaoun gi, jahaan shayad merey liye kuch sukoon ho ya mujh karam jalli ko wahan bhi nafratoun ka saamna kerna parey ..nahi jaanti, haan itna zarour jaanti houn aur tasleem kerti houn key aaj is muqaam per kisi aur ney nahi khud meri hi hawas aur khuwaishoun ney laa khara kiya hey, merey khudda ney to acha hi kiya merey saath bachpan sey ley ker jawaani tak maa baap behen bhaiyoun ka piyaar, un kaa laad, phir shoher ka ghar piyaar kerney waala bulkey jaan lutaney waala shoher, aik piyaara sa bacha, bherpor zindaggi di gai mujhey, lekin mey ney apney hi hathoun sey apni khusiyaan phounk daalin. Aap mujhey phir kabhi na perh sakain gey aur na kabhi sun sakain gey, lekin apni akhri ghariyaan aaney sey pehley mey chahti houn key duniyya key saamney aik aisi dastaan bayan karoun jo humarey itraaf baar baar ronumma hotin hain lekin hum bekhabri mey dekh aur samjh hi nahi paatey lekin jab hum mey sey koi aisi hi kisi dastaan ka koi kirdaar banta hey tab samjh aati hey, tab rad-e-amal ya to samjhota hota hey ya meri tarah halaat sey faraar, zindaggi sey faraar. kion key mujh mey himmat nahi ab apnoun ka saamna kerney ki un ki nazroun ki taab laaney ki un key saamney aaney ki jo mujh sey mohabbat key dawedaar hain, mey jawaani key shroo dinoun sey hi internet per sexy kahaniyaan perha kerti houn mey koi bhut buland ikhlaaq ya bhut naik lerki to nahi lekin apni izat aur iffat per kabhi huruf bhi nahi aaney diyya aur apney shoher ki banhoun mey aaney tak apni doshezgi ko bachaye rakha aur jab apna wajoud apni jawaani us key naam ki to us mey koi khout nahi thi, Lekin internet per kahaniyaan perh ker mey bhi bhut sey logoun ki tarah sirf lamhaati tour per socha kerti key kiya aisa hota hey phir zehen sey jhatak diyya kerti key yeh sab zehni awargi aur fantasy hey, lekin mey kahan jaanti thi key kal ko mey bhi aik kahani ka kirdaar banoun gi aur meri kahani bhi kuch log perh ker ussey man gharat aur fantasy hi kahain gey, lekin yeh sab jaantey hoye bhi mey yeh chahti houn key mey apni kahani aap tak pohnchaoun ,kal ko mey nahi rahoun gi lekin merey kahey yeh alfaaz ,meri bayan ki hoi yeh dastaan saaloun tak aap logoun key dermiyaan mukhatlif groups mey forums per perhi jaati rahey gi aur koi to yeh sochey ga key yeh sab sirf aik fantasy nahi bulkey us sey berh ker koi cheez hey...
Mey aati houn apney taruf per taakey yeh dastaan sunney sey pehley aap key aur merey dermiyaan jo ajnabiyat aur hijaab hey woh uth jaaye, mey aap sey kuch nahi chupaoun gi siwaaye apney asal naam key kion key mey to na rahoun gi lekin merey shoher ko aur merey aklotey bachey ko aap logoun key hi dermiyaan zinda rehna hey, Mera naam "Fozia" samjh lain, Waisey bhi namoun mey kiya rakha hey... Mey karachi key aik ilaaqey ki rihaishi houn, shaadi sey pehley merey waldain bhi middle class family hi they aur shaadi bhi meri jis sey hoi woh koi bhut ameer kabeer insaan nahi tha yeh alag baat hey key us ney apni mehdoud amdanni mey bhi apni bisaat sey berh ker merey liye kerney ki koshsi ki aur mey us ka kholoos aur mohabbat samjh hi nahi paai, Mey do bhaiyoun ki akloti behen houn shaadi sey pehley merey dono barey bhai aur maa baap mey sab hi ki laadli thi phir merey sab sey barey bhai job ki wajah sey mulk sey baher chaley gaye yaani mukhtasirn yun samjh lain bachpan sey jawaani ka arsa bhut hi sukoon sey guzra, school sey university ka safer kiya mey ney, merey waldain ney apni laadli beti ki perhai mey koi kaser na chori, mey bachpan sey hi bhut haseen thi, meri ammi din mey kai kai baar meri nazer utaara kerti thin, sochti houn jab mey na rahoun gi to merey maa baap ko kaisey saber aaye ga, woh kitna yaad karain gey apni akloti beti ko, lekin afsous unhey kabhi pata nahi chal sakey ga key aisi konsi wajouhaat thin jinhoun ney mujhey yeh intihaai qadam uthaaney per majbour ker diyya, Aur woh kon log hain jin key hathoun per mera khoon ho ga, Khair to jab mey jawaan hoi to khoob rang roop nikhar gaya, lamba qad, dubla patla smart jissam, patli si kamer gora rung ,haseen aur mutnasib jismaani aaza, dhulla dhullaya chehra, kaaley lambey kamer tak bal khaatey baaal, aur us per qudrat ki bakhshi masomiyat jo diloun ki dharkanain rok dey, mey pehley hi din sey bhut sey diloun ki dharkan thi, university key bhut sey lerkey apni ankhoun mey merey khuwaab sajaye phirtey they, lekin meri larkoun sey baat bus aik khaas had sey aagey na berhi, mey apney is liyye diyye rawaye ki wajah sey university mey maghrour mashire thi, lekin mey ishq aur mohabbat ko bus fazoul si cheez samjhthi thi aur shaadi jaisey barey faisley ko apney maa baap ki passand aur mayaar key mutabiq chor rakha tha ,haan jawaan thi ,to jawaani key taqazey zarour kabhi germa diya kertey they lekin bus wohi jo aik aam mashriqi lerki ker liya kerti hey jab tak us ki shaadi na ho jaaye key khud sey hi farigh ho li kabhi bathroom mey to kabhi raat ko sotey waqt ,is sey ziyaada kuch nahi, haan aurat aur mard key jinsi taluqaat internet ki badoulat bhtu pehley sey hi mujh per khul gaye they lekin mey kabhi had sey aagey nahi berhi aur khud ko sambhaaley rahi, Ishaq aur mohabbat sey koi dilchaspi nahi thi, rung ,mousam aur shairee merey liye waqt ka ziya thin bus mey to sochti key mera sohher jissey mey apney roop ka kanwaar pan sounpoun woh itney paisey waala zarour ho key mujhey raani bana ker rakhey, akloti honey ki wajah sey ghar mey bhi kabhi kaam nahi kiya, shehzadiyoun ki tarah paala merey waldain ney mujhey lekin jo kuch kamiyaan thin woh mey apney shoher key gher mey yaani apni aaney waali zindaggi mey pori kerna chahti thi, mey jab lerkiyoun ko barri barri gaariyoun mey apney shoharoun key saath ghomta dekhti to apney pass gaari na honey ka ehsaas aur shadeed ho jaata, khuwaaboun mey mey lambi chouri gaari, aur khoob sajjey hoye airconditioned ghar key sapney dekhti, almaaariyan aik sey berh ker aik haseen aur qeemti kaproun sey ,cosmetics sey bharri hoi dekhti, qeemti tareen zewraaat ka bhut shouq tha, yaani mey had sey ziyaada aish aur araam chahti thi apni aaney waali zindaggi mey, aur kion na chahti mey koi gai guzri na thi apney hussun aur roop ka aur is dour mey ab tak kanwaarpan ka kharaaj kam sey kam itna lena to mera haq tha, kam sey kam mey yeh samjhti thi, aisi baat nahi thi key shaadi sey pehley hum koi ghareeb they lekin merey khuwaab bhut hi ounchey they, Aur mey apney honey waaley shoher ko kam sey kam aisa chahti thi key woh merey in tishna khuwaboun ko haqeqat ka roop dey sakey.
Mey aati houn apney taruf per taakey yeh dastaan sunney sey pehley aap key aur merey dermiyaan jo ajnabiyat aur hijaab hey woh uth jaaye, mey aap sey kuch nahi chupaoun gi siwaaye apney asal naam key kion key mey to na rahoun gi lekin merey shoher ko aur merey aklotey bachey ko aap logoun key hi dermiyaan zinda rehna hey, Mera naam "Fozia" samjh lain, Waisey bhi namoun mey kiya rakha hey... Mey karachi key aik ilaaqey ki rihaishi houn, shaadi sey pehley merey waldain bhi middle class family hi they aur shaadi bhi meri jis sey hoi woh koi bhut ameer kabeer insaan nahi tha yeh alag baat hey key us ney apni mehdoud amdanni mey bhi apni bisaat sey berh ker merey liye kerney ki koshsi ki aur mey us ka kholoos aur mohabbat samjh hi nahi paai, Mey do bhaiyoun ki akloti behen houn shaadi sey pehley merey dono barey bhai aur maa baap mey sab hi ki laadli thi phir merey sab sey barey bhai job ki wajah sey mulk sey baher chaley gaye yaani mukhtasirn yun samjh lain bachpan sey jawaani ka arsa bhut hi sukoon sey guzra, school sey university ka safer kiya mey ney, merey waldain ney apni laadli beti ki perhai mey koi kaser na chori, mey bachpan sey hi bhut haseen thi, meri ammi din mey kai kai baar meri nazer utaara kerti thin, sochti houn jab mey na rahoun gi to merey maa baap ko kaisey saber aaye ga, woh kitna yaad karain gey apni akloti beti ko, lekin afsous unhey kabhi pata nahi chal sakey ga key aisi konsi wajouhaat thin jinhoun ney mujhey yeh intihaai qadam uthaaney per majbour ker diyya, Aur woh kon log hain jin key hathoun per mera khoon ho ga, Khair to jab mey jawaan hoi to khoob rang roop nikhar gaya, lamba qad, dubla patla smart jissam, patli si kamer gora rung ,haseen aur mutnasib jismaani aaza, dhulla dhullaya chehra, kaaley lambey kamer tak bal khaatey baaal, aur us per qudrat ki bakhshi masomiyat jo diloun ki dharkanain rok dey, mey pehley hi din sey bhut sey diloun ki dharkan thi, university key bhut sey lerkey apni ankhoun mey merey khuwaab sajaye phirtey they, lekin meri larkoun sey baat bus aik khaas had sey aagey na berhi, mey apney is liyye diyye rawaye ki wajah sey university mey maghrour mashire thi, lekin mey ishq aur mohabbat ko bus fazoul si cheez samjhthi thi aur shaadi jaisey barey faisley ko apney maa baap ki passand aur mayaar key mutabiq chor rakha tha ,haan jawaan thi ,to jawaani key taqazey zarour kabhi germa diya kertey they lekin bus wohi jo aik aam mashriqi lerki ker liya kerti hey jab tak us ki shaadi na ho jaaye key khud sey hi farigh ho li kabhi bathroom mey to kabhi raat ko sotey waqt ,is sey ziyaada kuch nahi, haan aurat aur mard key jinsi taluqaat internet ki badoulat bhtu pehley sey hi mujh per khul gaye they lekin mey kabhi had sey aagey nahi berhi aur khud ko sambhaaley rahi, Ishaq aur mohabbat sey koi dilchaspi nahi thi, rung ,mousam aur shairee merey liye waqt ka ziya thin bus mey to sochti key mera sohher jissey mey apney roop ka kanwaar pan sounpoun woh itney paisey waala zarour ho key mujhey raani bana ker rakhey, akloti honey ki wajah sey ghar mey bhi kabhi kaam nahi kiya, shehzadiyoun ki tarah paala merey waldain ney mujhey lekin jo kuch kamiyaan thin woh mey apney shoher key gher mey yaani apni aaney waali zindaggi mey pori kerna chahti thi, mey jab lerkiyoun ko barri barri gaariyoun mey apney shoharoun key saath ghomta dekhti to apney pass gaari na honey ka ehsaas aur shadeed ho jaata, khuwaaboun mey mey lambi chouri gaari, aur khoob sajjey hoye airconditioned ghar key sapney dekhti, almaaariyan aik sey berh ker aik haseen aur qeemti kaproun sey ,cosmetics sey bharri hoi dekhti, qeemti tareen zewraaat ka bhut shouq tha, yaani mey had sey ziyaada aish aur araam chahti thi apni aaney waali zindaggi mey, aur kion na chahti mey koi gai guzri na thi apney hussun aur roop ka aur is dour mey ab tak kanwaarpan ka kharaaj kam sey kam itna lena to mera haq tha, kam sey kam mey yeh samjhti thi, aisi baat nahi thi key shaadi sey pehley hum koi ghareeb they lekin merey khuwaab bhut hi ounchey they, Aur mey apney honey waaley shoher ko kam sey kam aisa chahti thi key woh merey in tishna khuwaboun ko haqeqat ka roop dey sakey.
Jaisa mey ney pehley bataya rang roop mey khudda ney mujhey fursat sey nawaaza tha, university key zamaaney mey kai aur larkoun ki tarah aik lerka tha "Nazeer" woh merey aagey peechey phirta tha, lekin lerkiyoun key maamley mey us ki shohrat kaafi kharaab thi, us ney kai baar merey saath flirt kerney ki koshish ki lekin meri aik do baar ki jhirkion sey us ney merapeechakernachour diyya, khair mey ney university sey faraghat paa li, aur haar maa baap ki tarah merey waaldain ney bhi meri shaadi key khuwaab ankhoun mey sajja ker merey liye rishtey dekhney shroo ker diye, bhut saarey rishtey aaye, Ameer, ghareeb, haseen, udhair umer, gharz mey aik anaar thi aur sou bimaar, merey maa baap ki nigha-e-inthikhaab Waqar Ahmed per tehri, Waqar Ahmed merey saath perhta raha tha, yun to mera senior tha lekin university mey hi apni wajahat aur zaberdast zahanat ki wajah sey khaasa maqbool tha, merey walid jahan deeda they woh jaantey they key yeh lerka un ki beti key liye nihayat hi mozoun rahey ga, is mey aagey berhney kii tamana hey aur mustaqbil mey taraqi kerney ki tamaam silahytain mojoud hain, unhoun ney mujh sey raaye maangi, mujhey bhalla kiya aitraaz ho sakta tha, Waqar ahmed bhi aklota tha, sirf aik maa thin, woh aik middle class area mey rehtey they, mey ney us waqt yehi socha key career ki shrooat hey waqar zarour taraqi karain gey aur mey bhi un key shaana ba shaana hongi bhur jald hum high society mey move karain gey, Rang roop mey waqar mera hum palla tha aur aisa saathi tha jis sey kandhaa milla ker chalna her lerki ka khuwaab ho sakta hey, Waqar sey meri tanhaai mey bhi batain hoin, unhoun ney bataya key woh mujhey shroo sey hi pasand kertey they, aur un ko mera alag thalag rehna aur meri saadgi bhaa gai thi, mey ney haan ker di. Aur mey Waqar ki ho gai.
Shaaadi key baad Waqar ki mohabbat ney mujhey nihaal ker diyya bhut hi mohabbat kerney waaley aur piyaar kerney waaley shoher sabit hoye woh, mera bhut hi khayal rakhtey aur humaari inhi mohabatoun ka phal meri goud mey aik saal baad Qamar ki soraat mey aa gaya, Qamar meraa piyaara beta, jis key peda honey per hum ney bhut khusiyaan manaiyen, hum ney us key peda honey sey pehley hi jab mey umeed sey thi na jaaney kitney khuwaab saja liye they aankhoun mey, Waqar pehley hi din raat aik kiye rehte they woh jaan tour ker mehnat kertey they meri her khuwaish un key liye hukum ka derja rakhti thi, lekin na jaaney kiya wajah thi jis tarah mey ney socha tha ya sab hi sochtey they Waqar ki us tarah taraqqi na ho sakki jaisi umeed ki jaati thi, zindaggi jamoud ka shikaar thi, laggi bandhi amdanni, jis mey woh meri her khuwaish pori to ker detey lekin khud pareshaan ho jaatey ,hum ney aik khobsorat sa flate ley liya tha, jis mey mey ney apni merzi sey khobsorat furniture aur mehngi tareen decoration per dhair saara paisa berbaad kiya ,jo kuch Waqar ki jama ponji thi woh shaadi mey aur us key baad flate ki tazeen aur araish per kharch ho gai, hum sochtey they key bhut jald waqar taraqqi ker lain gey to sab sahi ho jaaye ga, mujhey bari khuwaish thi key hum aik khobsorat si gaari bhi kharidain lekin phir Qamar ki pedaish per mehngey tareen hospitals aur phir mera operation aur us key treatment Waqar ki jaib aik baar phir khaali ker di, hum ney khuwaab to bhut sajja rakhey they, lekin kabhi mey sochti key kiya mey ney jo khuwaab apni aulaad key liye sajaaye hain woh porey bhi hongey kion key halaat mey behtri ki koi sorat samjh na aati thi, Qamar ki pedaish per Waqar ney socha key woh mulk sey baher chaley jaayen lekin koi achi setting nahi ban saaki, phir aik agent unhey dhoka dey ker kaafi paisey ley ker bhaag gaya aur humaara yeh khuwaab bhi tout gaya ,Waqar subah key gaaye raat ko hi wapis aatey unhoun ney do jobs shroo ker rakhin thin, issi mey humaara bacha bara hota gaya aur us ki umer taqreban teen saal ho gai.
Mey ney us ko karachi key aik bhut barey school mey kerwa diyya jis ki fees aur joining fees bherney key liye hum kai logoun sey udhaar lena para yahan tak key apna kaafi zewar bechna para ,Waqar ney mujhey kaafi samjhaaney ki koshsih ki lekin meri zid thi woh khamosh ho gaye, akhir qamar ka admision ho gaya, ab masla yeh tha key us ka school ghar sey kaafi dour tha us ki fees is qader thi key mey van lagwaaney ki himmat na ker sakki aur subaah jaatey hoye Waqar ussey apni bike per chour detey wapsi per mey ussey ley aati ,mujhey us key liye bus per aana perta, her roz tapti dophair mey chader orhey bus key zerye qamar key school pohnchti jahan barri barri airconditioned gaariyoun ki taweel line apney apney malikoun ki auladoun ko leney lagi hotin, unhi key dermiyaan kahin aik koney mey kisi darkht key neechey shadeed ehsaas-e-kamtari ka shikaar mey kharri qamar ka intizaar kerti aur mera baxha jab nazer aata to us key nazuk hathoun sey bag leti aur phir dono maa beta bus stop ki taraf chal partey ,meri jalti hoi ankhain un airconditioned gaariyoun ki taraf hotin aur dil mey khudda sey shikayyat key khudda ney mujhey gaari kion nahi di, Ab mey Waqar sey bhi kaafi talkh ho jaaya kerti meri berhti hoi ehsaas mehroomi humaarey aapsi taluqaat per bhi aser andaaz ho raha tha, lekin mera wajoud jal raha tha, mujhey gawaara na tha key mera haseeen beta apney class felloews key saamney jab apni maa ka haath pakrey bus stop ki taraf berhta to kiya sochta ho ga woh, yeh baat nahi thi key porey school mey aik sirf mey hi apney bachey ko bus sey laati thi kai aur aurtain bhi thin lekin mera bacha jo mujhey shehzaada lagta tha us ka yeh muqaam na tha, us din bhi bhut sakht germi thi.
mey aur qamar us din stop per akeley hi reh gaye they, germi bhi ghazab ki per rahi thi ,hua kuch yun key jo bus aai us mey itni jagha hi nahi thi key mey qadam bhi tikka sakti aur jo jagah thi woh merey saath kharri kuch aur aurtoun ney mujh sey pehley ghair li, natijatan ab karri dhop mey heraan pareshaan kharri dosri bus ka intizaar ker rahi thi, qamar bhi halkaan ho raha tha, dour dour tak koi bus nazer nahi aa rahi thi, ikka dukka gariyaan road sey guzer rahin thin, aik black color ki khobsorat car merey saamney sey guzri mey ney hasrat sey socha kitna khushnanseeb insaan hey jissey is shadeed germi mey is gaari ki thandi fiza mayasar hey, kaash mey aur qamar hotey is gaari mey, yeh dua merey hountoun sey nikli aur herat angaiz tour per gaari aik dam ruk ker reverse aaney laggi, merey qareeb ruk gai mey jhainp ker saamney road per bus ki talaash mey nazer doraaney laggi, achanak aik awaaz aai, "Arey Fozia yeh tum hi ho na?"
Mey ney chounk ker gaari sey jhaanktey chehrey ko dekha...
Kuch jaana pehchaana sa laga....
Ek dum bijli chamki aur us ka naam merey zehen mey roshan ho gaya... woh nazeer tha..mera university fellow...
Mey ussey pehchaan gai thi ..lekin apni pehchaan chupaana chaah rahi thi.. mey nahi chahti thi key nazeer university ki haseen tareen lerkiyoun mey sey aik ko yun is tarah bus key intizaar mey dhoop mey khuwaar hota dekhey... abhi soch hi rahi thi key apney fozia honey ya na honey ka iqraar karoun ya nahi key woh gaari sey uter aaya...
"Mey ney pehchaan liya tum ko.. tum fozia hi ho... arey aao mey tumhain ghar chour doun... dekho mey nazeeer houn.. yaad aaya university mey saath perha kertey they..??"
ab ussey pehchanna majbori thi... lekin mey ney phir bhi apni anna ko aagey kiyya.. "Haan nazeer mey ney tumhain pehchaan liyya.. aaj merey betey ki van kharaab thi to mujhey aana parra... koi bat nahi ziyaada germi nahi... mera ghar bhi qareeb hey mey chali jaoun gi tum zehmat na karo.."
Nazeer bola.."Arey fozia yeh kaisi ajnabiyoun si batain kerti ho...yeh tumhaara beta hey?.. bara khobsorat hey bilkul apni maa ki tarah... aa jao abhi bus aaney mey kaafi dair hey mey chour deta houn...'
Us key israar key aagey haar maana para.. shayyad kuch dosri wajouhaat bhi thin,,bus aaney ka naam nahi leti thi... phir shayyad ander sey mera dil is thandi thaar gaari mey bethney ka ker raha tha...
Mey ney akhri dafa kamzour sa ehtajaaj kiya.. lekin nazeer ney qamar ko piyaar sey kaha "Aao beta mey uncle houn tumhaara aao tumhain aur tumaari mama ko ghar chour doun..."
Qamar khushi khushi gaari mey beth gaya...mey us key saath pichli seat per bethney laggi to nazeer ney jaldi sey aagey berh ker merey liye agli seat ka derwaaza khol diya.. mey aik lamhey ko jhijki phir aagey berh ker us ki baraber seat per beth gai..
Raastey mey woh mujh sey kai sawaalat pochta raha...raastey sey aik jagah ruk ker us ney colddrinks aur kuh khaaney peney ki chezain lin ...woh mujh sey pochta raha... Meri shaadi Waqar key saath ho gai yeh sun ker woh khush hua.. apney baarey mey bataney laga key perhai key baad woh karobaar kerney laga us ney barri taraqqi ki ziyaada ter mulk sey baher rehta hey karachi key aik posh area mey akela apney bangley mey rehta hey duniyya mey aur koi hey nahi... merey is sawaal key jawaab mey key us ney shaadi kion nahi ki us ney besakhta kaha.."Tumhaari jo shaadi ho gai thi...dil hi tout gaya.."
mey ney chounk ker ussey dekha to hansney laga.. bola.."Bhi abhi taksocha hi nahi shaadi key baarey mey key pehley kuch ban jaoun phir shaadi karoun.. khamkhueah shaadi ker key kangley pan mey kisi lerki i zindaggi berbaad kerney sey to behter hey..phir mey chahta tha key merey bachey unhey mey her woh araam aur asaish dey sakoun jo is duniya mey hain.. ab mey is qabil houn to ab sochoun ga.."
baat to khair woh sahi ker raha hey... mey ney dil mey socha insaan jab tak kuch ban nahi jaata ussey shaadi nahi kerni chahye aur phir bachey kam sey kam peda na karey jab tak unhey her araaam aur asaish deney key qabil na ho jaaye... us aik lamhey merey dil mey Waqar key liye ajab si bezaari peda hoi...
Nazeer baat bey baat meri tarefain kiye jaa raha tha... woh keh raha tha.."Fozia yaqeen nahi aata key tumhaari shaadi ko 4 saal ho gaye aur tum aik bachey ki maa ho.. bara sambhaal ker rakha hey tum ney apney aap ko... wohi khubsorat chehra.. wohi nazakat.. shoher tumhaara bhut hi lucky hey bhi... yaqeen jano.."
Inhi batoun mey ghar qareeb aa gaya mey ney gher key qareeb aik road per gaari rukwa di.. bus yahan sey mey pedal chali jaoun gi mera ghar qareeb hi hey... woh bola.."Kiya aik cup cofee ka bhi nahi pocho gi...issi bahaney tumhaara ghar bhi dekha lain gey.."
Mey jhijki lekin mey ney ussey opper aaney ki dawat dey daali.. woh muskurra ker bola ..abhi nahi phir kisi din zarour aoun ga waqar sey bhi miloun ga... mey ney ussey raasta samjha diyya woh muskuraata hua chala gaya...
mey qamar ko ley ker ghar aai aur jaldi jaldi khaana bananey mey lag gai, qamar key soney key baad mey nazeer key baarey mey kaafi dair sochti rahi, mey is waqt jhoot nahi boloun gi merey dil mey kai baar yeh khayal peda hua key ager waqar ki jagah mera shoher nazeer hota to aaj meri zindaggi hi mukhtalif hoti.. phir mey khud hi apney dil mey aaney waaley in khayaloun ko kosney laggi... inhi uljhanoun mey raat ho gai... Waqar aaye to na jaaney kab qamar ney unhey bata diyya key aaj hum kisi uncle ki gaari mey ghar aaye they ..waqar key pochney per mey ney chupaana munasib na samjha aur unhey bataya key key aaj jab hum wapsi aaney key liye bus stop per they to Nazeer wahan aa gaya humain dekh ker ruk gaya aur humain ghar tak chour gaya... Waqar key mathey per shiknain si par gain.. kuch dair sochney key baad boley.."Yeh nazeer wohi hey na jo university key zamaney sey hi siyasat key chakaroun mey per gaya tha aur kai baar jail bhi gaya tha... sunna tha key lerkioun key maamley mey bhi us ki shohrat achi nahi hey.."
Mey boli..:jee.. aap ney ney theek phechana ..lekin lagta hey ab woh bilkul badal gaya hey karobaar kerta hey aur waisey hi university key zamana to hota hi mastiyoun ka hey... jab insaan practical life mey aata hey to bhut badal jaata hey.."
Waqar sanjedgi sey boley.." Aisa bhut kam hota hey fozia... insaan ki fitrat kabhi badalti nahi hey.. aur jis tarah ka nazeer tha mushkil hi hey woh sudher sakey.. khair chouro in batoun ko .."
Us key baad wohi normal batain hoti rahin...
agley din chutti thi.. us key baad key do din sukoon sey guzrey phir us din bhi yehi hua mey stop per khari thi key nazeer ki gaari aa ker rukki... qamar dekhtey hi pehchaan gaya..mera dil nahi ker raha tha us ki gaari mey bethney ka aur itefaaq sey bus bhi saamney sey aa gai aur khaali bhi thi mey us sey mazrat ker key jaldi sey qamar ko ley ker bus per cherh gai... waqar ko passand na tha to mey bhi ab nazeer sey mazeed koi taluq nahi rakhna chahti thi.... us key baad mey ney yeh kiyya key qamar ko agley stop sey bus per laaney aur ley jaaney laggi... mey nahi chahti thi key mey ab nazeer ko dekhoun aur us ki taraqqi dekh ker apney piyarey shoher key liye merey dil mey koi aisa waisa khayal aaye... mey waqar ko bhut ziyada chahti thi unhoun ney bhut piyaar kiya tha mujhey ..aur waisey bhi aik kanwaari lerki sab sey ziyada hamesha us mard ko chahti hey jis ney us ki doshezgi ki khusboo churai ho...
kaafi din guzer gaye ...ek din subah dus bajey ka waqt ho ga key door bell ki awaz sun ker mey chunk gai ..yeh waqt mera kitchen mey kaam ka hota hey bertan waghera dhona aur khaaney ki tayari kerna hoti hey... mey ney apney haath ponchey aur yeh soch ker flate ki hi koi parosan ho gi jaa ker derwaaza khol diyya... mera dil dharak gaya.. saamney hi khusboun mey basa nazeer khara tha... us key chehrey per wohi muskurahat thi...
mey ney ussey ander bulla liya ...us key liye cofee banai... woh shikwa ker raha tha key tum ney mujhey dekh ker stop hi change ker liya mey ney dekh liya tha lekin wahan aana munasib na samjha.. mey ney dhakkey lafzoun mey ussey jata diyya key waqar ko mera us key saath yun aana passand nahi.. woh kehney laga key yeh qudratti baat hey khair kaafi batain kerta raha woh phir challa gaya...mey ney socha challo ab jan chotey gi ..lekin jaan aur azaab mey aa gai.. na jaaney waqar ko kaisey pata chal gaya key nazeer aaya tha.. us ney raat ko barey ajeeb lehjey mey mujh sey pocha to mey ney bata diyya key mey kiya kerti woh derwaazey per aa ker khara ho gaya tha.. khair waqar key chehrey per pareshaani thi... us ney mujh sey kaha key nazeer key baarey mey achi batain maloom nahi hoi hain.. woh ab tak aik siyaasi tanzeem sey wabista hey aur siyasat mey kaafi sergaram hey... us ney aik siyaasi jamaat ka naam bhi liyya... woh so gaye mey sochti rahi ..merey nazdeek kisi siyaasi jamaat ya siyasat mey hona koi aisi burri baat nahi thi.. kitna paisa hey us key pass.. apni honey waali biwi ko kitney sukh dey sakey ga woh... bhalla kiya waqar sharafat ki zindaggi sey zindaggi bher mujhey aur qamar ko woh sukh dey saktey hain... yeh kaafi kerwa sawaal tha... jis ka jawaab bhi mujhey maloom tha... bus inhi kerwahatoun ko ley ker mey so gai... Raat ko barey ajeeb aur besharam sey khuwaab mujhey nazer aaye mey ney khud ko nazeer ki banhoun mey dekha aur us key chehrey per barri makrooh muskurahat thi... mey ney dekha key merey jissam sey aik aik ker key kaprey utertey jaa rahey hain aur nazeer ki bhooki nazrain merey wajoud per hain ...aur mey bamushkil apney hathoun sey apney khaas niswani aazaa chupaaney ki nakaam koshsih ker rahi houn... bara hi ajeeb khuwaab tha... subah meri tabiyat kaafi mukder thi..
yeh kuch akhri tehrirain likhtey hoye na to mey shermaoun gi aur na hi kuch chupaoun gi ..ager merey andaz-e-bayaan sey kahin behayaai nazer aaye to maaf kerye ga... mey apney khuwaboun ka ziker ker rahi thi lekin mey yaqeen sey kehti houn key in khuwaboun ko dekh ker ya nazeer ki daoulat ka andaaza laga ker bhi merey dil mey kahin bhi waqar sey bewafai kerney ka khayal peda na hua tha.. bus yunhi aik awaara sa khayal tha key meri shaadi ager waqar ki jagah nazeer sey hoti to kitna acha hota... mera khayal hey aisa khayal shaadi shudda aurtoun ko zindaggi mey kabhi na kabhi aata hi hey... aur aurtoun ko hi kiya her insaan ko hi aata hey ...key ager aisa na hota waisa hota to aaj zindaggi kitni mukhtalif hoti... yeh sab batain kerney ka maqsad sirf yeh batana hey key merey dil mey koi gandaggi na thi aur mey sirf apney waqar hi ki thi ..us sey agley do din nazeer bhi kahin nazer na aaya yeh teesrey din ki baat hey wohi stop wohi germi key merey saamney nazeer ki gaari a ker ruk gai..aaj woh barey mod mey tha us ney humain gaari mey bitha liyya aur kehney lagga key chalo aaj mey tumhain apna ghar dikhaata houn... yeh keh ker woh gaari doraaney laga mey ney kahin bahanoun sey ussey rrokna chaha kai bahaney banaye lekin woh na maana aur israar kerta raha... us ki gaari karachi key aik behud vip ilaaqey mey dakhil ho rahi thi mey soch ker khamosh rahi chalo bus kuch hi dair mey mey nazeer sey kahoun gi key woh humain ghar chour aaye.. kuch hi dair ki to baat hey... waisey ander sey mera dil keh raha tha key mey nazeer ka ghar dekhoun... Aur ghar kiya tha mehel tha mehel... bilkul waisa hi jaisa mey ney khuwaboun mey dekha tha...
derwaazey per wardi mey darbaan jis ney gaari aatey dekh ker jaldi sey derwaaza khol diyya ander wasee car parking jis mey kai qeemti gaariyaan kharin thin... ghar ki aik aik eeent amarat ka monh bolta sabout thi.. jab hum gaari sey uter key ander aaaye to ghar ki sajwat dekh ker meri ankhain khuli ki khuli reh gayen mey nazeer ko ameer samjhti thi lekin woh tto badshaoun ki tarah rehta tha... woh meri taraf dilcaspi sey dekh raha tha... jab mey chunki to kehney laga... "Dekhti ho fozia..itna bara ghar ..itna rupiyya paisa ..lekin her taraf sanata.. weraniyaan... mey bilkul akela rehta houn.. jab thak jaata houn to kuch arsa mulk sey bahar guzaar leta houn...""
Mey ney khuwab naak lehjey mey kaha.."To tum shaadi kion nahi ker letey nazeer..?"
Woh hans ker kaha."Bus aik aarzo thi ..jab sey woh tooti to ab dil hi nahi kerta .."
Mey chunk ker boli.."Kiya matlab.. kiya koi lerki thi.."
Woh bola.."Haan bus thi koi us ki shaadi ho gai ..aur mey monh dekhta reh gaya... meri kharab shohrat jo merey dushmanoun ney merey khilaaf phela rakhi thi aarey aa gai... us ki shaadi key baad bus mey bahar chala gaya sab kuch chour ker khoob paisa kamaya ...lekin kiya fayeda yeh sab bekaar hey ager woh nahi to.."
Merey dil mey us lerki key liye hasad sa utha.."Kon thi akhir woh.. ?"
Woh muskurra ker meri taraf dekhney laga.. phir bola "aao mey tumhey baaqi kamrey dikhaoun.."
Mey us key saath porey ghar mey ghomti rahi.. aik kamrey mey bhut saarey khiloney they qamar us mey lag gaya... hum dono opper key kamroun ki taraf aa gaye.. woh mujhey apney bedroom mey ley aaya mey khuwaab naak andaaz mey us key shaandaar bedroom mey charoun taraf ghoum rahi thi aik aik cheez amrat ka nishaan thi behud paisa lagay gaya tha her cheez per... mey us ki khobsorat almaariyoun ki taraf berhi to un mey mujhey khobsorat ladies kaprey aur isi tarah ki zanana chezoun ka aik anbaar nazer aaya... mey ek dun chunki mur ker dekha to woh bari si dreesing table key pass khara us ki drawer mey kuch rakh raha tha.. mey ney kaha "Aik baat to batao nazeer..?"
woh sawaliya nazroun sey mujhey dekhney laga..."Tum kehtey ho key tum yahan akeley rehtey ho lekin woh neechey bachoun key khilonoun ka kapra aur phir yeh tumhaarey bedroom mey mey itney sarey ladies suite ...yeh sab kiya hain.."
Woh ek lamhey key liye sanjida hua phir muskura ker keney laga..."Mey ager bata bhi doun to tum shayad yaqeen na karo... mey ney apna pora ghar bana liya lekin tanhai ka ehsaas tha key jaata hi na tha... ghar kaatney ko dort aapna shaandaar ghar dekhta apna bank balance dekhta to kuch bhi na honey ka ehsaas aur bhi ziyaada gehra ho jaata... key ager woh meri zindaggi mey hoti to hum yeh kertey hum yahan jaatey ..humaarey bachey hotey to hum un key liye yeh kharedtey ..mey us key liye aisey kaprey kharedta ...aur yeh ehsaas akhir itney ghalib hoye key mey ney apni khayaloun ki aik duniyya abaad ker li jaisey woh merey saath ho.. mey jab bhi bahar jaata aur apney liye kuch kharedta to us key liye kharedta jaisey woh merey saath hey.. apney bachoun key liye khardta .. jaisey woh mera ghar mey intizaar ker rahey houn... aur kai saaloun sey yunhi chalta raha.. aur ab tumhaarey saamney hey key almariyaan duniya jahan key kaproun sey perfumes sey bharri parri hain lekin un ko istimaal kerney waaala oi nahi.. bachoun ka kamra khilonoun sey atta para hey lekin un sey khelney waala koi nahi... bus yeh kuch tishna khuwaishain thin kuch khuwaab they ...jis ki wajah sey mey ney aik khayaali duniyya abaad ker li..."
Meri aankh mey ansoo aa gaye... kitni mohabbat thi is shaks mey... aik lerki sey jo us ki zindaggi sey na jaaaney kitna arsa pehley nikal chukki hey aaj bhi woh ussi ka naam leta hey us ko chahta hey ...apni zindaggi ko kitna tanha ker liya hey is shaks ney.. us ki izat meri nazroun mey kai gunn berh gai thi... mey ney kapkaptey lehjey mey pocha "Kiya tum mujhey us khushnaseeb lerki ka naak nahi bataou gey ho sakta hey mey ussey jaanti houn.."
woh kaafi dair tak meri taraf dekhta raha.. mey soch rahi thi key pata nahi university ki konsi nazneen is key dil mey ho gi..
woh sersaratey hoye lehjey mey bola.."woh lerki tum ho fozia..sirf tum.."
Merey kanoun mey jaisey seetiyaan bajney lagin.... mey phatti phatti ankhoun sey ussey dekhney laggi... mey ney bhut si love stories dekhin thin lekin kabhi socha nah itha key koi mujh sey bhi itni gehri mohabbat kerta ho ga.. kisi ney merey liye apni zindaggi yun yanhai mey guzaari ho gi... woh mujhey yun herat sey apni taraf dekhtey hoye bola.. "Kiya baat hey fozia.. kiya tum ko burra lagga...? yeh sach hey mey university key zamaney sey hi tumhey bhut pasand kerta tha. lekin kabhi himmat nahi parri tum sey kuch kehney ki... bus dil hi dil mey tumhaari poja kerta raha.. tum hi to thin jo meri ankhoun mey samaai hoi thin.. phir jab hum university sey farigh hu a to socha kuch ker key dikhaoun phir tum jaisi haseen lerki ki hath mangoun lekin mujhey bhut dair ho gai... Waqar mujh sey pehley tumhey apna bana chukka ta... merey dil ki duniya ujer gai... mey apney berbaad wajoud ko liye is mulk ko hi chour gaya.. na jaaney kahan kahan bhatkta raha itney saaloun bus paisey kamaata raha.. phir wapis aaya to yahan sab waisa tha bus tum nahi thin phir mey ney ghar banaya.. mey aik aik cheez tumhaari pasand ki kharedta apney khayaloun mey her waqt tumhey apney pass mehsous kerta ..aur akhir kaar tum aik roz meri aankhoun key saamney aa hi gayen...aur aaj itney barsoun baad jo merey dil mey tha woh mey tumhey keh raha houn.... dil ka bojh halka ho gaya.."
Us ney to apney dil ka bojh halka ker liya lekin merey zehen aur dil mey bhut sey sawaal uth kharey hoye... mey ney ahista sey kaha.."ab kiya ho sakta hey nazeer meri shaadi ho chuki hey ..ab yeh batain kerney ka koi fayeda nahi.."
Woh ahista sey bola.."Mey jaanta houn.."
Hum kaafi dair bus yunhi khamosh kharey apney apney khayaloun mey gum rahey phir mey aik dum chunki... mey kahan kharri thi.. mey us shakhs key bedroom mey khari thi jo kabhi mujhey bhut mohabbat kerta tha.. mey kisi ki izat thi.. kisi ki biwi thi... mujhey zaib nahi deta tha key mey yun kisi ghair mard key bedroom mey khari rahoun.. mey boli.."Nazeer humain dair ho rahi hey .."
woh bola "Acha chalo aao mey tumhey chour aaoun.." Hum neechey utrey qamar abhi tak khilonoun sey khel raha tha ... mey ney us ka haath pakra aur nazeer humain gaari mey bitha ker stop tak chour aaya.. wahan sey aagey jaaney sey mey ney inkaar ker diyya aur qamar ka haath paker ker uter gai aur bus per beth ker wapis aa gai.. chaltey waqt nazeer ki ankhoun mey aik shikayat si dekhi mey ney lekin mey ussey nazer andaaz ker key aagey berh gai...
Ab mey yeh dastaan kuch mukhtasir kerti houn kion key na merey pass ziyaada time hey aur na aap perhney waaloun key pass meri fazoul batoun key liye time ho ga... to us din key baad meri nazeer sey kai mulaqatain hoin... lekin us key baad mey ghar nah igai us key.. aik din waqar ko shayad qamar ney bata diyya key hum uncle key ghar gaye they .. us din shaadi key baad pehli dafa woh mujh sey bhut larey aur unhoun ney mujh per haath bhi uthaaya... phir pori raat beth ker samjhaatey rahey... lekin mera dil tha key maan hi nahi raha tha... woh kehta tha key nazeer key saath ziyadti hoi hey ..
yeh koi dus din baad ki baat hey us din wohi stop per gaari rukki jissey dekh ker qamar uchalta kodta hua gaari mey jaa betha.. mey bhi beth gai.. aik lamhey key liye waqar ka khayal aaya mujhey lekin dosrey hi lamhey woh nikal gaya... nazeer kehney laga "Fozia aao aaj mey tumhey kuch chezai ndikhaana chahta houn..."
yeh keh ker woh gaari apney ghar ki taraf ley gaya... ghar ley jaa ker us ney sab sey pehley to qamar k o Play Station gift mey diyya... Play Station qamar kaafi arsey sey maang raha tha lekin bhut mehnga honey ki wajah sey hum ussey ab tak dilla nahi paaye they.. us ney ussey Play station TV mey laga ker dey diyya... us key baad woh mujhey ussi bedroom mey laaya aur mujhey bed per bitha ker us ney merey saamney aik bhut hi khobsorat red Saari rakh di... shakal sey hi bhut mehngi lag rahi thi.. aur saath hi aik laal dabba... mey ney ussey khola to us mey aik behud qeemti haar jagmag ker raha tha... woh kehney laga.."Fozia yeh woh chezain hain jo mey ney tumhaarey liye khareedin thinj.... wiasey to yeh sab tumhaarey liye hi thin.. lekin bus kiya tum meri yreh khuwaish pori ker sakti ho key yeh saari aur yeh zewar apney haseen jissam per mujhey pehen ker dikha do... bus yun samjh lo meri zindaggi bher ki tishnaggi dour ho jaaye gi... bolo kiya tum meri itni zara si khuwaish pori ker sakti ho.."
humaarey dermiyaan kaafi batain hoin mey tafseel mey jaa ker aap ko bore nahi kerna chahti ... mey ulajh rahi thi ..lekin dil keh raha tha key is badnaseeb insaan ki itni si khuwaish jis ko pora ker key mujhey koi nuqsaan bhi nahi pora kerney mey harj kiya hey akhir dil ki jeet hoi... mey saari aur zewar ka dabba uthaye bath room ki taraf berh gai.. ..Bath room bhtu hi shaandaar tha charoun taraf shehey lagey they.. mey ney apney saarey kaprey utaar diye ...charoun taraf laggey barey barey sheshoun mey mera berhanna wajoud mujhey nazer aa raha tha .. mey ney aik nazer apney haseen wajoud per daali.. shaddi ko 4 saal guzarney key bawajoud.. merey jissam key kassao mey koi farq nahi aaya tha.. khilta hua sunheri rang....kamer kuch berh gai thi lekin ab bhi alag nazer aati thi.. khoob ubhra hoin chatiyaan.. golaai liye hoye barey kolhey aur ranoun key dermiyaan haseen khazaana.. jis per baal naam ko nahi they .. waqar ko choot per baal bhut napasand they... ab kiya kahoun.. unhey meri choot chusney mey bhut hi maza aata tha.. aur mujhey bhi zahir mey mey bhi dewaani thi.. choot chustey hoye jab un ki ghanni monchoun key baal meri choot key androuni naram laboun sey takraatey they to mey kai kai baar farigh ho jaaya kerti thi... aur kion key mera beta qamar operation sey hua tha is liye choot abhi tak apna hussun berqareaar rakhey hoye thi... mey ney yehi sab sochtey Saari kholi barri hi haseen saari thi.. us mey hi lipta hua red brazier bhi tha woh bhi shermaatey hoye mey ney pehen liya... sab kuch pehnney key baad mey ney apna jayeza liyya to apney hussun per khud per hi piyaar aaney laga... mey baher nikli to nazeer ki ankhoun mey jo kuch tha ussey dekh ker mey burri tarah sherma gai.. waqr ki siwa aaj pehli baar kisi mard ney merey jissam key zawiyoun ko is tarah dekha tha... nazeer ney meri tareef mey zameen asmaankey qilaabey milla diyye... us ney apney hathoun sey meri khobsorat gerdan mey woh qeemti haar pehnaaya aur kai qeemti tareen perfumes merey jissam per chirak diyye mey mehki mehkaai dulhan si banni us key bedroom mey us key saamney kharri thi aur woh bekhud sa kharra apni sapnoun ki rani ko dekhey jaa raha tha inhi shokhiyoun mey humain waqt ka ehsaas hi na hua teen bajey mey chunki aur shermindaggi ka ehsaas hua neechey qamar na jaaney kab sey akela tha bacha bhoka tha school sey ley jaatey hi mey ussey khaana khilaati thi lekin aaj in masrofiyaat mey us ka dhiyaan hi na raha bhagam bhaag neechey pohnchi to woh masoom soya para tha.. mey ney opper jaa ker jaldi jaldi kaprey change kiye nazeer bhut bola kuch dair ruk jao per bhut dair ho chukki thi.. jab chalney laggi to us ney Play station aur woh saari aur woh haar aik bag mey rakh ker merey hawaaley ker diyye.. mey ney bhut mana kiya lekin us ki zid key aagey meri aik na chali socha tha key kuch din waqar sey chupaker rakh doun gi phir kisi bahaney ussey bata dongi... us ney ghar key qareeb aik stop key pass utaar diyya wahan sey rikshaw paker ker bhagam bhaag ghar pohnchi to ghar ka lock khulla tha mey thitki... bell bajai to derwaza kholney waala koi aur nahi waqar tha.. aur us ka mizaaj behad biphra hua tha...
Ab aagey ki tafseel kiya bataoun dil rota hey... qamar ney us din apni maa ko apney baap sey burri tarah pittey hoye dekha... lekin mey to kehti houn key waqar ney to phir bhi merey saath bhut nermi berti.. sochti houn us ki jagah koi aur mard hota jis ki biwi aik bag haath mey liye ghar mey ghusti jis mey kai qeemti chezain hotin .. jis ka bacha ussey batata key hum kitni dair aik uncle key ghar per rahey mama un key saath opper thin mey neechey betha game khel raha tha .. to woh mard apni biwi key sath kiya karey ga....Waqar aur meri bhut laraai hoi.. us din mey apney shoher sey bhut larri.. mey ney ussey khul ker bata diyya key nazeer mujhey us sey bhi pehley sey chahta tha.. yeh to meri qismat kharaab thi key meri shaadi tum jaisey kangley insaan sey ho gai... jis ney meri jawaani ko ghis ker rakh diyya... jo duniya ka nakaam insaan hey jis ney apni biwi key liye kuch nahikiya aur na apney bachpoun key liye kuch ker sakey ga... mey us azeem insaan key dil per gehrey gehrey zakham lagaati rahi woh sunta raha... kuch batou key jawaab bhi diye ..phir khamoshi sey us ney kaha key tum abhi aur issi waqt merey ghar sey nikal jao mey bhut jald tumhey talaaq dey donga... mey us waqt tak hathey sey ukher chukki thi.. apna ghar apney hi hathoun sey phokney key liye tayyar bethi thi... woh ander kamrey mey chaley gaye mey phone key pass aai aur mey ney nazeer ko phone kiya us key bangley per number merey pass tha.. nazeer ney hi phone uthaaya mey ney ussey rotey hoye saari baat batai.. aur us sey kaha key mey ab waqar key saath nahi reh sakti mey tumhaarey pass aa rahi houn ...mey tum sey shaadi kerna chahti houn ..tumhaari mohaqbbat ney mujhey khareed liya hey..aur issi tarah ki na jaaaney kiya kiya batain ounchi awaaz mey kerti rahi taakey waqar ka dil ziyaada sey ziyaada dukhey.. merey gaal waqar key maarey gaye thapraoun ki wajah sey dukh rahey they ...mey ussi waqt nikkli qamar ka haath thaama ghar key neechey sey rikshaw liya aur seedhi nazeer key ghatr pohnch gai...bahar derbaan ney mujhey dekh ker derwaza khol diyya mey ander pohnchi... qamar so raha tha thak ker aur rotey rotey... mey ney ussey aik kamrey mey litaya aur nazeer key eeney sey lag ker roney laggi... woh mujhey dilaasey deta raha woh mujhey apney bed room mey ley aaya... mey roti jaa rahi thi aur woh mujhey seeney sey lagaye.. dilaasey deta raha...ab us key haath kuch kuch badtamiziyaan bhi ker rahey they..
mey ney kaha abhi nahi nazeeer pehley humaari shaadi ho jaaney do... woh zid kerney laga key yeh tumhaara dukh baant dey ga.. mey ney bhi socha yeh waqar sey intiqaam ka acha tareeqa hey.. mey ney nazeer ko khuli chout dey di...
ahista ahista hum dono key jissam key saarey kaprey neechey parey they aur us key hount merey jissam per phisal raey they us key daaant meri naram chatiyoun ko kaat rahey they meri bhi siskiyaan nikalney lagin... aj merey jissam per waqar key siwa kisi aur mard ka saaya phelta jaa raha tha..woh chomta chusta neechey uterta raha meri ankhain band hoi jaa rahin thin.. mey sisak rahi thi us key baloun mey haath phair rahi thi...us ney ahistaggi sey meri dono tangain khol din aur meri chikni choot us key saamney aik kitabki tarah khul gai jissey woh apney laboun sey warq warq perhta raha..us ney dil bher ker meri gulaabi choot ko chusa kaata...phir mujhey achitarah tersa ker woh merey saamney khaara ho gaya us ka lund merey monh key saamney tha yeh us ka lund tha jo mujh sey aik arsey sey mohabbat kerta tha mey ney mohabbat sey us ka lund apney hountoun key dermiyaan ley liya merey nazuk lab us key barey aur mazbout lund mey aag bherney lagey us ney mazbouti sey mera ser tham liya merey bandhey hoye baal khol daaley woh chan sey merey jissam per phail gaye us ney bedardi sey unhey muthi mey liya aur apna por a lund merey halaq tak thouns diyya meri ankhain phut parin us sey mujhey mera saans rukta mehsous ho raha tha lekin woh ankhain band kiye is tarah apna lund merey halaq mey utaar raha tha jaisey koi mard apni biwi ki pehli raat us ki takleef ki perwaah kiye baghair us ki choot mey daalta hey... mey ney aik hi mard to berta tha zindaggi mey yeh dosra tha mohabbat ka anokha andaaz samjh ker us ki arzo pori kerti rahi...lekin had to yeh thi jab us ney aik akhri jhatka maar ker jer tak merey monh mey ghussa diyyya ur us ki mani merey halaq ki gehraiyoun sey hoti merey pait mey uter gai... jab us ney apna bheega hua lund merey monh sey nikaala to mey bhi besudh ho ker bed per gir gai aur woh bhi ... mey us ki ziyadti ka shikaar hoi thi... mey ney waqar ka lund bhi chosa tha lekin unhoun ney kabhi apni mani apni biwi key monh mey na chouri thi.. ajeeb mohabbat thi us ki.. ab hi mey soch hi rahi thi key nazeer sey us ki is herkat ki shikayat karoun key jab mey choot kholey us ki muntazir thi to merey monh mey yeh sab kerney ki kiya zarorat thi tab hi aik jhatkey sey derwaaza khulla...mey jhatkey sey uth bethi...
Aik ajnabbi sa aadmi apni makrooh hansi liye kamrey key ander aa raha tha us key haath mey glass tha jo yaqenan sharaab sey bharra hua tha... mey ney apna jissam chupaaney ki kosish ki to kehney laga... "kion chupaati ho raani.. hum oi ghair thori hain.. hum boss hain tumhaarey yaar key ..yeh ghar humara hi hey.. nazeeer humaara mulazim hey kutta hey humaara.. hum hain..... us ney apna naam bataya woh naam mey nahi likhoun gi woh aik barri siyaasi party key aik barey aadmi ka naam tha...aagey woh nazeer sey kehney laga... kiya tu ney is rundi key bachey ko merey bachoun key marey mey sulla rakha hey ...nazeer ghigyaney laga.." Nahi sahib.. is ko gherney key liye yeh sab mey ney apna zahir kiya tha.. woh kuttey ka pilla abhi so raha hey aap jab tak is ki jawaani key mazey lotou.. qasam sey mey ney sirf is key naram labpoun ka zayeqa chakha hey.. kutta houn janaab aap ka choot abhi tak garam hey haath bhi nahi lagaya aap ka ghulaam houn aap sey pehley kaisey maal ko khaa sakta houn.."
Woh hansa barri hi makrouh hansi.."Shabaash ..ab tum bahir jao mey zara is bano ko dekhoun kiya kiya chuppa rakha hey is ney .."
Nazeer baher jaaney laga mey us ki tangoun sey lipat gai bhut wastey diye ussey khudda key lekin woh bedardi sey merey jissam ko apney boss key samney patakh ker challa gaya... us key jaaney key baad us ka bos merey saamney beth gaya mey zameen per ukroun bethi thi ..aur apna jissam us ki hawas bharri nazroun sey chupaaney key jattan ker rahi thi.. woh bola.." Arey raani ..ab kion shermaati ho.. yeh nazeer to bherwa hey saala... is ka to kaam hi lerkiyoun ko phansa ker kabhi dubai to kabhi hong kong bhejna hey... saala haraami... yeh ghar mera hey mey apni biwi aur bachoun key saath rehta houn itifaaq sey merey biwi bachey london gaye they.. mey bhi un key saath th aaj jaldi aa gaya to is ney bataya key us ney nai bulbul phaansi hey... saala harami tera soda bhi ker chukka hey ...ab dekh to us key haath to chud hi chukki hey abhi teri choot mey aik lund jaata hey ya dus teri jawaani ghisney waali to hey nahi... chal mujhey khush ker dey gi to ho sakta hey mey teri chudai zara nermi sey karoun werna merey neechey sey jo aurat guzer jaati hey woh kai din apni choot sehla sehla ker roti rehti hey.."
Na jaaney kiya kiya bakta raha woh..sharaab khattam ker key us ney mujhey uthaya aur bister per la patkha.... us key baad mera jissam tha aur us key daant na jaaney kitni jagah us ney kaata nocha... mera jissam to takleef ki shidat sey sun sa ho gaya tha... us key baad meri choot mey lund daal diya jab us sey dil nahi bharra to mujhey zaberdasti ghori bana ker merey pichley soraakh mey daalney ki koshish kerney laga waqar ney mujhey pichey sey kabhi nahikiya tha aaj woh soraakh bhi barri bedardi sey khol dala gaya... mey kitna roi kitna terpi wahan kisey perwah thi... mey na jaaney kab behosh ho gai.. jab hosh aaya to koi merey chehrey per thandey paani key chentey maar raha tha.. aankh khuli to wahin bed per berhanna parri thi aur chentey maarney waala nazeer tha ..ab us ki ankhoun mey hawas thi.. us key saath aik aur aadmi tha bari monchoun wala...un dono ney apney kaprey utaarey aur meri halat ki perwah kiye baghair mujhey ghori bana ker baari baari apney lund meri chooot mey daaltey ...woh kisi english film ki naqal ker rahey they.. aik aagey sey kerta to dosra merey monh mey halaq tsak apney lund daaley hota..meri chatiyaan noch daalin unhoun ney merey nazuk nipples sojh key phol sey gaya..pora jissam neel sey atta para tha.. kaafi dair baad jab merey jissam ka her soraakh un ki behti manni sey bher chukka to woh dono kaprey pehenker baher nikal gaye... mey ahista sey uthi aur ghilazat churaney key liye farash per ghisat ker bath room ki taraf jaaney laggi.. baar baar meri ankhoun key aagey andhera chaa raha tha.. aik bhayanaak khuwaab sa lagta tha.. ajisey abhi aankh khuley gi to mey waqar mey pehlou mey leti houn gi... lekin yeh aziyatain to meri qismat mey likh di gain thin... mey uthi to achanak hi mujhey wahan para phone nazer aaya.. mey ney aik lamha bhi zaya nahi kiya.. sab sey pehley police emergency ko call ki ....aur wahin gir ker behosh ho gai... ab goya mey bach sakti thi.. hosh aaya to mey wahin bed per berhanna parri thi aur merey charoun taraf boss, nazeer, us key teen aadmmi aur do police waaley lkharey they.... un ki awazain aa rahin thin.. "aap fiker na karain... waisey ab aap ko is ko chorna parey ga.. baat opper tak pohnch gai hey.. ap aisa karain is ki nangi taswerain bana lain aur is key shoher ko bulla ker bol dain key teri biwi yaar key saath yahan merey ghar mey rang raliyaan mana rahi thi ...ager monh khola to nangi taswerain dikha dain gey .."
Khair aap bahaer jaye sahib hum is ko samjha detey hain ..police waloun ki raal tapak rahi thi aik gori chitti lerki un key saamney nangi parri thi ..woh kahan chorney waaley they ..akeley paatey hi woh dono tout parey.. pora jissam mera is qabil to tha nahi key woh mazeed zulum kertey bus unhoun ney apni apni paints ki zips kholin aur baari baaari meri choot mey apni hawas nikaaal ker hanptey hoye baher nikal gaaye... mey nahi jaanti us key baad kiya kiya hua... mujhey hosh aaya to mujhey Waqar nazer aaye... unhoun ney mujhey dekha.. mey pagaloun ki tarah kaproun sey beniyaaz kamrey key aik taraf bethi thi.. un per kiya guzri ho gi jab unhoun ney apni piyaari biwi ko itney logoun key beech bilkul nanga dekha ho ga.. mera pora jisam mujh per torey gaye zulmoun ki gawahi dey raha tha.. un key aaney tak mazeed teen logoun ney merey jissam sey apni hawis pori ki thi...meri choot to kiya mera pora jissam mardoun ki mani sey nahaya hua tha.. monh kiya baal kiya koi aisi jagah hi na thi.... waqar ney kis aziyat sey mujhey dekha.. phir aik chader ley ker bister sey mujhey urha di... police waaley na jaaney kiya kiya kehtey rahey... un ko dhamkiyaan detey rahey... ab nazeer mujhey baich to na sakta tha kion key baat record mey aa gai thi.. lekin unhoun ney meri taswerain banai thin.. phir unhoun ey mujh per ilzaaam lagaya tha key ager hum ney un key khilaaf koi baat ki to woh yeh keh saktey hain key teri biwi apney yaar key saath is ghar mey rang raliyaan manatey pakri gai thi ab shour macha rahi hey... khair us key baad mey behosh ho gai... hosh aaya to ghar per thi.. waqar ney khamoshi sey kuch nurses ka intizaam ker liya tha.. meri choot mey aur pichley soraakh mey kai stiches lagaye gay... her cheez lahoulohaan ho chuki thi.. chatiyoun key dono nipples un zalimoun ney kaat diye they... un nurses ney meri dekh bhaal ki teen haftoun baad to mey bed sey uth ker khari honey key qabil hoi... mujh per ajab dewaanpan taari tha... mujh ko kaprey pehnaaye jaatey to mey shalwaar utaar ker tanagain khol deti... kabhi ghori banney ki koshih kerti.. shayyad mey pagal ho jaati lekin waqar ki bepanah mohabbat ney akhir mujhey zindaggi aur hosh ata ker diyya.... ab is baat ko do maah ho chukkey hain... Waqar ney bhaag dour ker key ab case kerney key liye kaafi saara mawaad jama ker liya hey.. woh us barey aadmi per case kerna chah rahey hain apni biwi key rape ka... woh nahi samjhtey lekin mey jaanti houn kitni ungliyaan un per uthain gi... kitni hansi urey gi... kaisi kaisi taswerain court mey saamney lai jayen gi... mujh per kiya kiya ilzaam lagaye jayen gey... kaisey sahain gey woh... phir qamar aaj nahi to kal bara ho ga.. ussey pata chaley ga woh apni maa ki nangi taswerain dekhey ga to kiya kahey ga.... us key dost us ko kaisey kaisey namoun sey pukarain gey... gharz yeh baat ager khul gai to kitni berbaadi ho sakti hey yeh mey samjhti houn... merey maa baap wo to jeeteey jee mer jayengey... aur mey pregnent ho chukki houn.. itney admiyoun mey sey pata nhi kis ka bacha merey pait mey hey mey jaanti houn waqar kabhi bhiis bachey ko zaya nahikerney dain gey lekin mey kisi haraam key bachey ko kaisey peda karoun gi... kaisey zindaggi guzaroun gi uis azeem aadmi key saath jis ney itna kuch honey key bawajoud apni biwi ko sahara diyya... us ka perda kiya.. us key aagey dewaar ban gaya.. aur woh kitney khaternaaak log hain yeh mey jaanti hi houn... woh to merey porey khandaan ko khattam kerney ki taqat rakhtey hain ..unhey kon rok sakta hey bhalla....
Ab mazeed kuch likhney ki taqat nahi rahi... ap ney woh waqiyaat perhey ..sochye ga zarour key in halaat mey ager mey ney khudkushi ki to kiya ghalat kiyya... aur koi raasta bhi to nahi tha merey pass... jhoti khuwaishoun jhotey sapnoun key peechey mey ney apna ghar jalla daala aik aisa aag mey jo ab mujhey raakh kerney ko tayyar hey... to yeh mey ney khud hi to bherkaai thi aur yeh merey khoon sey hi bujh sakti hey.. is sey pehley key yeh aag aagey berh ker merey mohabbat kerney waaley shoher aur merey laadley betey qamar ki zindagiyoun ko bhi jhulsa daaley mujhey issey apney khoon sey bujhaana ho ga... Mera qamar bhut chota hey abhi.. khudda us ki hifazat karey woh ab kabhi apni maa ko nahi dekh sakey ga.. kabhi apni maa ki god mey late ker so nahi sakey ga... lekin itna jaanti houn key kam sey kam apni maa ki badnaami sey jis tarah ghut ghut ker jal jal ker woh bara hota ab woh nahi ho ga meri kammi zahir hey mehsous karey ga..lekin yeh duniya ka nizaam bhi ajab hey.. kabhi rukta nahi.. kabhi koi marta nahi kisi key liye.. jaaney waaley chaley jaatey hain...
Mey aik baar phir aap logoun ka shukriya ada kerti houn .. key meri yeh dastaan jo aaj tak shayyad sirf chand logoun ko maloom thi ab aap sab bhi jaantey hain... ab mey ijazat chahti houn is dua key saath key merey saath jo kuch hua woh kabhi bhi kisi key saath na ho... Bus yeh mera Akhri Salaam hey aap logoun key liye..Alvidda...
